The last few months have been tough challenging usual excruciating. I don't want to go into specifics, but let's just say it's getting harder and harder every day to put on a happy smile and face the challenges. I've gained weight, lost sleep (insomnia is a great friend of mine), skin has broken out, and hair has fallen out. Stress has definitely taken a toll on my body. I have almost weekly migraines and more often tension headaches.
Lately I've had many conflicting plans. What's the right choice? If I chose Option A, I have x consequences. If I chose Option B, I have a whole other set of x consequences. How do I weigh all the interests, consequences, and potentials outcomes (good and bad)? All the advice I've received conflicts. Some tell me Option A, some OptionB, and some other undetermined option. I really don't know... All I know is that right now I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. And neither one are moving anytime soon.
On a slighty happy side note, last night I received a package from Amazon. My first thought: am I buying things on Amazon and don't remember? Nope, I haven't been shopping in my sleep. J sent me an early Valentine's Day present (at least I'm assuming, but considering he isn't all that supportive of V-Day, don't know and don't care). It was exactly what I needed last night: chocolate. Dark chocolate. Dark chocolate with mint. Dark chocolate with caramel. Dark chocolate with raspberries. Heaven in a heart shaped tin!