In January, I am embarking on 30 days of creative writing exercises.  I'm behind by one day, but want to catch up tonight or tomorrow.

When was the last time you felt really, truly lonely?

I randomly pulled this question up today, but almost immediately regretted it.  How do I answer this question?  How personal do I get here on the blog?  I took a minute to think mull over these issues...

The last time I felt lonely was right after my miscarriage in August 2012.  Even though I knew that others had experienced the same feelings and emotions, I felt like I was completely alone.  I retreated into myself and spiraled into a depressive episode.  It took almost two months for me to bring myself back out.  Those two months, I felt a deep loneliness.  It was irrational and yet I felt it.  The thing that helped me reconnect with the world was reading.  It was socializing with other people.  It was becoming engrossed in a fictional world.  Somehow, slowly, I started to wake back up and realized that I had people who cared for me.  I started socializing more and eventually got back into my regular routine.